I think I will blog a little more regularly for my fans sisters and my posterity. Perhaps for therapeutic purposes also.
All I know is that every day I'm shuffling. And that today Dan looked at me and was in shock that I wanted to teach our son that to which I replied that if he wanted to he could stay home and nurture the child then. I am pretty easy going that way, what can I say?
Here is the thing about having parents that are divorcing. Of course we all knew that it was coming, things have been pretty bad for a long time (20+ yrs?). But then when it actually happens you have to deal with all the emotions wham'bam right now! No more peek-a-boo! And then because your parents have always been dealing with a rotten relationship they have/had a lot less emotional space to care about their kids. It's just how it works. So you figure things out for yourself because you really have no other choice and you usually make a lot of mistakes along the way. It may also make one very mature for their age, I'm not sure. We slowly get over the let downs that keep happening over and over, but sometimes we end up loosing it just one more time because really we can't help it, we'd really love some parents who love each other. But then you also have to make the space for the 'they were doing their best'- which I think is true. And I have always loved each of them dearly.
Now if you'll excuse me from my pity party, I have some eggs to devil.
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That is really sad about your parents. Betina blogged about something sad (but didn't say what) a few weeks ago and maybe it's this. I'm glad you have your new little family now for support, and your siblings. Hope it's not too weird I read both you and your sister's blog and I haven't actually met either of you! Can't wait for your baby to pop out. My first was born in DC, at Sibley memorial hospital. Also, Betina's youngest daughter is wearing the same dress in the family picture I bought for my daughter Maple, love Target...
grl sorry to hear about the big D, it is never fun, no matter what age you go through it (i was 16).
we love you and your little baby, so geez once henry is a little older and i'm not scared to drive places, we need to pay a little visit to see you and dan and bump. ps i still really like simon. pps henry is asleep on my chest right now as i type this, and he's so warm and lovely. i can't wait for you to feel a warm heavy baby sleeping on your chest!!
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